You may have noticed, when we first introduced Victor, that I had a tendency to get defensive about him. That’s because for me, he’s more than just a character. Victor is based off of someone I adored in real life. He could be just as infuriating, but despite his flaws, I loved him. Deeply. And now he’s gone. He left this world in the same way that Victor did, leaving all of us confused and aching with grief. As a survivor of my own suicide attempt, I kept thinking about how much I wish I could have been there with him. Even if I couldn’t talk him out of it, I hate that he was alone. His loss continues to trouble me to this day. He had so much potential, but he was also dealing with truly difficult issues. If you are too, please don’t give up. Talk to someone instead: List of suicide crisis lines